On Why God Is The Niggerization of Love . . .

Being niggerized is not something that just happens overnight. It takes years of deprogramming, programming and reprogramming to successfully niggerize a people. To be beat down to the point where you just willingly accept whatever you’re given is to be niggerized. To not speak out for fear of being attacked and/or vilified is to be niggerized. To humorize one’s own denigration because the pangs of reality are too much to bear is to be niggerized. To be awarded for perpetuating the self-hatred — the hallmark of niggardry — is to be niggerized. To be afraid to stand for what’s right and speak the truth is to be niggerized.

Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together. -Vincent van Gogh

Babel On In Babylon

To be niggerized is to concede to defeat. The niggerized mind denies or doesn’t realize that it’s oppressed at all. There’s a language and a thought process that goes along with being niggerized. “Well, if it was good enough for so-and-so, it’s good enough for me.” “Why fight when ain’t nothing gon’ ever change. Just shut up and do your job. Play the game and get that money.” “I’ll speak out when the time is right.”

To be niggerized is to not be in control of your thoughts. You are trained how to think, or better still, taught not to think at all.

“I call it the niggerization of a people, not just black people, because America been niggerized since 9/11. When you’re niggerized, you’re unsafe, unprotected, subject to random violence, hated for who you are. You become so scared that you defer to the powers that be, and you’re willing to consent to your own domination. And that’s the history of black people in America. That’s the history of black people in America.”

-Dr. Cornell West

Niggerization is not something that happens only to people of color. There are plenty white folks who have been niggerized. The white niggerized mind lives in fear of the Black crackwhore or the Black gangsta. They are hardworking, privileged white people who are as much victims of White, capitalist plutocracy as poor, disenfranchised Blacks. Oppression isn’t just black and white. It exists on a gradient scale from the top down. Only an elite few sit at the top unscathed by the assault of niggardry that plagues the rest of us.

The Black artist is needed to change the images his people identify with, by asserting Black feeling, Black mind, Black judgement. -Amiri Baraka

The niggerized mind is taught to protect its master’s ideals, even at his or her own detriment. Truth is the only cure for injustice. To be honest is to be brave enough to take a stand for who you really are– no matter what color. The fact is the elite depends on oppressive silence to survive. Elite does not only mean the White race or the wealthy of America. The Elite are those who wish to control and manipulate others through means of deception. So the question is: How do we become niggerized?

The Niggerization of Propecia

Greed is the seed of Niggerization: the covetous desire to have something you don’t need, but been conditioned to feel you do. A healthy life with resources to provide for oneself and for those we care for should not be a privilege. It should be the right of every human being on this planet.

“If you define ‘nigger’ as someone whose lifestyle is defined by others, whose opportunities are defined by others, whose role in society is defined by others, the good news is that you don’t have to be black to be a nigger in this society. Most of the people in America are niggers.”

-Ron Dellums

We become niggerized because The Elite preys on the insecurity that somehow we don’t feel complete. We become niggerized because we accept the illusion we’ve been sold. Eve was niggerized by Lucifer. Malcolm X was niggerized by Elijah Muhammad. The opposite of the truth is not a lie. A lie is not the absence of truth, it is the distortion of truth. A lie uses the truth to pull you in. The truth part resonates with you and makes the lie more palatable and believable. Belief is always questionable; knowledge is not.

“De nigger woman is de mule uh de world so far as Ah can see.”

-Zora Neale Hurston (from Their Eyes Were Watching God– 1937)

Niggardry does have one advantage though. The best way to find out who we are is to become who we’re not. We create the illusion so we can dismantle it. We build a glass house around us so at some point we can destroy it.

“Hittin’ stones in glass homes…” -Frank Ocean

How To Break The Cycle

“Mr. President, take your campaign, the division, and anger and hate back to Chicago…” -Mitt Romney

This is nothing but racial coding for, “Nigger, carry your Black ass to the field and pick me some cotton.” “Boy, shut up and shine my shoes” “Negro, take your anger and go back to Africa.” “Nigga, instead of sitting here stunnin’, flossin’, and ballin’, go home and feed your family.”


God Is A Dirty Word

Atheism, like Christianity, is a belief. It is a belief and beliefs BeLie the truth. A belief is only a mirror of reality. Belief requires thought, and once thought is in the picture, there is already something in the way. The sole purpose of the existence of belief is to be questioned. The only way to truth is to break through the wall of belief.

God is such a loaded term. The moment you say “God,” people feel self-righteous, defensive, angry, resentful, entitled, guilty, manipulated, empowered, love, compassion, redemption– just about the gamut of every emotion there is to be had. Why? Why does God evoke such adoration and angst all at the same time?

Because so many atrocities of this world have been done “In the name of God…” by humans, it’s highly unlikely we will ever all agree on whether God or the idea of God is intrinsically good or bad. And no matter how many good deeds done “In His (Her) name…” nothing will change this.

Four Square update . . .

I just ousted Darryl Keys as the mayor of The Crack House on Dr. Martin Luther King Ave. & 13th St. @foursquarehttp://4sq.com/bITCH  #mfcomn

Go To The Ant

“I study ants and that’s because I like to think about how organizations work. And in particular, how the simple parts of organizations interact to create the behavior of the whole organization. They all live in colonies consisting of one or a few queens and then all the ants you see walking around are sterile, female workers. And all ant colonies have in common that there’s no central control. Nobody tells anybody what to do. The queen just lays the eggs. There’s no management. No ant directs the behavior of any other ant and I try to figure out how that works.”

“So, ants never make more ants; colonies make more colonies.” She goes on to say, “And curiously and interesting it looks as though at any time about half the ants in the colony are just doing nothing. So despite what it says in the bible about look to the ant thou sluggard…” -Deborah Gordon

But are those ants doing nothing or is it that it just looks as though they’re doing nothing? She also says that those ants serve as a buffer in the middle between the younger worker ants at the bottom of the colony and the older worker ones at the top, and eventually get recruited by the worker ants. Sounds to me as though there seems to be balance between rest and work that is contingent on the middle for survival– there’s a brief lesson on economics! Ha.

. . . to quote the full scripture . . . Proverbs 6:6-8

6 “Go to the ant, thou sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise: Which having no guide, overseer, or ruler, Provideth her meat in the summer, and gathereth her food in the harvest.”

In other words, ants have not been niggerized. They all see the benefit of serving the colony over their individual needs. No ant feels a need to have dominion over the others. With no ruler, they carry out their tasks perfectly fine, and are known to adapt to the task at hand– even if it doesn’t fit their “job description.” They are somehow social without being socialized. #BAM!

Walls of Superstition

“When you believe in things you don’t understand, then you suffer…” -Stevie Wonder


Matthew 5:43-48  “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.”

The idea of “haters” is something that has become commonplace amongst the youth of today almost to the point of being cliché, particularly in social media. I have even coined my own Twitter meme in honor of it- #mfcomn. It’s a hashtag for: Mothafuckas Chillin’ On My Nutz

I’ve honestly done some of my best work fueled by the venom of my haters. It inspires me and I’m really thankful for the naysayers. It is because of the backdrop of darkness we are able to experience the sun in all its glory.

An Atheistic Love

“It is not possible to be an atheist and love music. It is not possible to be an atheist and love anything. God is love.”

-Nicholas Payton

In some ways, a disbelief in God is more faith in God than belief. Belief is the domain of the discursive intellect. People believed that the world was flat until they actually traveled all the way around to find that it wasn’t. We now have proof the earth is round and no longer have to believe in it. Belief is always subject to change. Knowledge is unflappable as it’s founded on experiential evidence we know to be true.

The Niggerization of Love

When you niggerize something, you create an image of something that’s vile, to be feared, you objectify it, you brand it, you sell it, you smear its name.

That’s what it is to be a nigger and we’ve made a nigger out of God.

The story of Jesus Christ is one of the greatest examples of niggerization that’s ever been told. He was vilified, crucified, and hung from a tree– just like a nigger!

Here Comes The Son

Man made God in his own image. God didn’t create this “vengeful, terrible” image of itself, man did. God is the most powerful force in the universe. There is no sickness that God can’t cure. Jesus Christ is God in the flesh. Jesus raised the dead and cured the sick. Jesus fed the multitudes. Whoever believes in Him shall not die, but have everlasting life

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” -John 3:16

God is love and love is God. 1 John 4:8 says– “He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.” If God is love, this scripture is basically saying: if you don’t love, you don’t know love. Therefore it is not possible to love and not know love. You don’t have to believe in God to love, but you have to believe in love to love. So, by the definition of Atheism, God is an atheist. Love does not  “believe” in love. Love is love.

You don’t have to believe in yourself when you know yourself.

“Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God (Love) is within you.” -Luke 17:21

Love is the most powerful force in the universe. There is no sickness that love can’t cure. Love raises the dead and cures the sick. Love feeds the multitudes. Whoever believes in love shall not die, but shall live forever. A life without love is no life at all.

Love is within us all.


– Nicholas Payton aka The Creator of #BAM aka The Savior of Archaic Pop


On Being a Superwoman . . .

Superwoman is a lonely bitch. You can’t complain about what someone doesn’t do for you if you don’t trust them enough to let them do it. Stevie Wonder wrote some of the most poignant lyrics ever. I often marvel at that prolific stretch of records he did from Music of my Mind through Hotter Than July. What a mothafucka! Stevie was a bright light in a very dark period in our society. The irony should not be lost that he was physically blind, but saw more than most.

Lyrics have a different vibration when the person who writes them wrote and plays the music, as well.

Peep that cover! Pure artistry. Those glasses? That shit is dope!

What about those tune medleys Stevie did like this one or Ordinary Pain? Duality at its finest.

Shirley Brewer!

The day you let the painful experiences of your life contaminate your ability to love others freely is the day you begin to become less human.

And if you don’t dig Stevie Wonder, fuck you! #TGIFYF

Love, Trust, and Respect

I believe trust, like respect and love, should be a given. We should give it freely and openly to everyone until they’re proven not trustworthy. Matter of fact, I don’t believe that; I know it. If you don’t love, trust, or respect with an open heart, it’s not love, trust, or respect.

To be clear, I never said give someone all of yourself from the start, I just said love with an open heart. In fact, you should never give anyone all of yourself, I don’t care who it is. If you give someone all of you, there’s no longer anything left of you to give.

Love never looks to protect itself. True love is its own protection. As long as you’re looking for love, you’ll never find it. The only way to have love is to be love. Sound and feel.


Feelings. Whoa, Whoa, Whoa . . .

All feelings are not to be expressed. It’s OK to feel without having to put it out there, especially if they add no value to anything or anyone.

Don’t Believe In The Light, Be The Light

The biggest lie ever told is that we are separate from The Creator and need an intermediary to be The Light. We are all lights. That said, some tend to shine more brightly than others. The only thing that stands between you and The Creator is you. Step aside and be in The Light.

Preachers abuse it and teachers use it. It’s the way the establishment keeps its power. They tell you that The Creator dwells outside of you so you look everywhere except within.

Goin’ Places


“I’ll be your sunshine, but if you’re cloudy I can’t come shining through.” -Michael Henderson

Thank God it’s Fuck You Friday! #TGIFYF


– Nicholas Payton aka The Creator of #BAM aka The Savior of Archaic Pop

On Being Selfishly Selfless . . .

There is no way to have peace without war. It should be called “piece” because it’s only part of the story. Striving for world peace is silly. We should all strive for inner-peace. Once we achieve that, we will instantaneously have world peace. The world is simply a collection of individuals. There will be no world peace until there is collective inner peace amongst all peoples.

World Piece

Fuck healing the world. Heal yourself. You’re no good to The Cause if you ain’t well within. Speaking of healing the world… What’s up with these Black artists who do a banging 1st half of an album, then the 2nd half full of “heal-the-world,” crossover bullshit?

Nas needing to have a ghostwriter is like Ron Jeremy needing a penis extension. #mfcomn

Leggo My Eggo

We’ve been lied to. We’re told that something is wrong with ego. Well, there isn’t. Ego is only bad when it’s out of balance with generosity. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being selfish or having an ego. If you aren’t good to yourself first, you’re no good to anyone else. Lack of ego is as much of a hindrance to personal and spiritual growth as too much ego. Balance is key.

Ego is like food; too much or too little can be destructive to one’s health. Ego is what tells you to put on your oxygen mask first so you can better assist others. Ego is what gives you faith in a greater world when everything around you suggests otherwise.

Self Worf

Being selfish and selfless are not mutually exclusive. You can have a healthy sense of ego and be a generous soul at the same time. Without a sense of self-worth, you are of no worth.

When you’ve completed a project where you feel your creative genius was at its highest, remember– bullshit floats.

Wherever I go, ego.


– Nicholas Payton aka The Creator of #BAM aka The Savior of Archaic Pop

On The Blues . . .

The Blues is not a style of music, it’s a lifestyle.

If you’re always willing to put your trust in shady folks, but constantly doubting the people who love you, fuck you.

If you’re always looking to get, and never ready to give, fuck you.

If you’re quick to condemn, but slow to support, fuck you.

Sound and feel are most important. Everything else is secondary.

If you don’t get lost every now and then, you ain’t really going nowhere.

The key to longevity is taking rests before you feel you need to.

Embrace your mistakes. It’s nothing but the truth trying to come out.

There are plenty mistakes if you’re reaching. That is where the beautiful stuff happens. Embrace them.

Most musicians spend their whole lives trying to figure out what to play, but very few devote much time to learning what not to play.

Without the attachment of sound or feeling, words are intrinsically empty.

Musicians know nothing of The Blues. Only an artist can effectively interpret The Blues.

Belief is the bastard child of knowing.

Fuck believing in yourself. Know yourself.


– Nicholas Payton aka The Creator of #BAM aka The Savior of Archaic Pop

On The European Influence in Black American Music . . .

Who invented harmony? Harmony exists in nature. We are harmonic beings. We are rhythmic beings. Black Americans didn’t invent harmony; neither did Europeans. Because many Black American musicians have been influenced by European harmony it doesn’t take away from the fact their music is a Black expression.

 Mama Zora Was Feisty 

Because Zora Neale Hurston wrote and thought in the English language it does not make hers any less a Black story. Like Louis Armstrong, Zora’s legitimacy was questioned because she wrote in dialect. Before Louis Armstrong, the trumpet was used sparingly as a solo instrument in orchestral settings in comparison to how they were used post-Pops. Pops also had the benefit of a coming along at a time where the trumpets were technically superior to those of the past. The trumpet was a bastard instrument until Pops put his imprint on it.

“Notwithstanding the real loftiness and distinguished nature of its quality of tone, there are few instruments that have been more degraded (than the trumpet). Down to Beethoven and Weber, every composer – not excepting Mozart – persisted in confining it to the unworthy function of filling up, or in causing it to sound two or three commonplace rhythmical formulae.”

-from Hector Berlioz’s Treatise on Instrumentation (1844)

Clarke Bars

Check this letter from cornet master Herbert L. Clarke for what he thought of the trumpet:

As fanatical as this letter appears to be, I do agree that JAZZ is the nearest hell.

My Teacher Vinny

My teacher Vincent Chicowicz (left) of the famed brass section of the Chicago Symphony Orchestra (1952-1974) once told me that he and Adolph Herseth looked to Louis Armstrong as the standard for how a trumpet should sound.

It’s interesting to me that many of the same people who think Black American music isn’t valid because it doesn’t adhere to a European aesthetic are the same people who try to claim ownership by saying it employs European harmonies. Classical music is often called “legit” music. Does that make all non-European forms of music illegitimate?

Stravinsky and Chanel

Because Stravinsky was influenced by Black music it doesn’t make his expression less indicative of the European aesthetic. Because Bird was influenced by Stravinsky it doesn’t make his expression less indicative of the Black American aesthetic.

Blue Seven

A Dominant 7th chord is a chord in which the seventh degree is flattened (lowered by a half-step). In theory, the Dominant 7th chord may have existed in Classical music before it did Black American music, but in practice it’s not the same Dominant 7th chord.

In Classical music, the Dominant 7th chord was typically used to resolve to the tonic (the reference note for all other pitches in a piece). In the Blues, the Dominant 7th chord IS the tonic, not just a passing chord.

We took a chord commonly used as a stepping stone and made it our home. 

It’s the sound of Black American music. I know for a fact that when cats want their music to sound less Black and less like the Blues, they avoid using Dominant 7th chords.

Plymouth Rock Landed On Us!

Is it that Europeans invented certain chord structures, or is it that we have all adopted and accepted the European system of chord analysis as the universal system? Where that flatted 7th is placed can change the sound of that note immensely. Have Black American musicians applied the usage of European harmony as much as the rules governing European harmony been applied to Black American music?

Lady Lester For President!

A hat is a hat, but a hat cocked ace-deuce makes it a different hat. Inflection is everything. How something is said or laid can create a new world. You can’t predict what effect a gift you give someone will have, but you can certainly affect the place from which it is given.



        Do the fruits you bear augment or diminish? 

Fuck What Some Old Cat Says Sometimes . . . .

Not all of the masters have the right idea about Black music. Just because so-and-so said they love JAZZ and studied European harmony does not mean that’s what the music is about. Many are victims of a colonial mindset. A lot of Black folks don’t talk about studying Black culture as they’re too busy trying to assimilate and integrate into White culture. Some Blacks don’t discuss Black culture because they ARE Black culture.

                              Acceptance is a bitch.

Black American music has undoubtedly been influenced by Classical music and Classical music has most certainly been influenced by Black American music. To say Classical music — credit to the European culture that created it is implicit in the title — but when you say JAZZ it can come from anywhere.

What Time Is It?

When a student transcribes a Charlie Parker solo, it becomes very easy to separate the music from the Black man who created it. Saying JAZZ is just another way of not acknowledging the Black community it came through. I don’t expect that people will stop using the “J” word, even though it has shown time and again to serve to the detriment of the art, the artists and its supporters.

And to be honest, some things are most certainly deserving of the JAZZ title. Jazz is the White caricaturization of Black American music. Harmony, albeit important, has never been the basis of innovation in Black music. All major innovations in Black American music have been in sound and feel.


Charlie Parker’s and Dizzy Gillespie’s chief contributions were based in feel, not notes. They studied and talked about the notes, because harmony lends itself to analysis. You can’t theorize free rhythmic thought. The moment you do, it no longer is free and you wind up with JAZZ.

There are cats in college who know more harmony than Trane and it don’t mean shit. #mfcomn

It was more about where they started and landed than the colors they chose to paint with.


   We splash around harmony like colors on a canvas.

How the triplets were swung is really what was innovative about so-called Bebop.

Fluctuation is a mothafucka.

– Nicholas Payton : August 1, 2012

All That Jazz Is For The Birds 

Bird was not radically different harmonically from Art Tatum, but where he placed those notes is what set him apart. We also have to take into account that Art Tatum played piano and was able to complement his solo lines with the corresponding chordal structures and bass notes. Bird’s chordal substitutions seemed light years away because the pianist or bassist usually had no idea what notes he might choose which sometimes created a beautifully dissonant harmonic rub.

“ . . . With Strings”  implies somehow the ‘Jazz’ musician is more legitimized by playing music somewhat associated with a European aesthetic. That’s why I’m calling my piece Black American Symphony.  

– Nicholas Payon : June 10, 2012

Smackwater Jack

After a while, you’re going to hit a wall harmonically. It’s sound and feel that will get you out of a bind every time. Everything comes from somewhere else.

Revolutionaries don’t create new things. They take some shit you look at everyday and make you see it a different way.

– Nicholas Payton : June 28, 2012

The most we can do is reorganize preexisting material and give it a new perspective. You cannot properly assess Black American music through the lens of a European outlook. Each must be respected on its own terms. Because Dvorak checked out Black American music doesn’t make his music less European. Because Duke Ellington listened to Debussy does not make his music any less Black.


– Nicholas Payton aka The Creator of #BAM